kk guys i know i used this space to bitch and whine more times than youll care to read about but this is going to bee breezy =D

aight imagine that you are a parent of a severely retarded quadriplegic. because your child requires constant care you have no outside life what so ever. you must always be their for him or her. you cannot leave him or her alone, everrrrr.so that means you must do every task for him including the dirty ones like wiping his or hers ass and spooning soft food into his or hers mouth..so if you don't care for him or her then death will take a frown upon your child and die....hmm many times you thought about letting him go and be done with it all but you love your child. the little bastard makes you laugh. in fact, everyone you meet tells you how much they love him too.."hes such a funny retard" they tell you."he made my day when are you going to bring him again?!" ,and so they jabber on and on about how much they enjoyed that one thing he did at that one time..so what does your dumb ass do?..you continue to sacrifice so this funny little retard can continue to amuse this world or do you wait until he drifts off into a deep sleep and suffocate him with a pillow? hence my mind is a severely quadriplegic son . I've tried to put this retarded mind into a home..unfortunately theirs no home that takes care of minds that are thinking way out of their fucking boundaries..but over the years my mind has transformed into a seething beast and i lost my opportunity to kill it..
tough shit ehh.......