Early in the morning it is much easier to push aside the feelings that consume me most of the time. I can pretend that I am someone else with successes of greatness on the brink of changing the world. It's after I stretch every muscle in my body and push myself out of the bed that I remember who I really am. The insignificant girl er...woman that has wasted the last ten years of her life. I can't change that. I can't erase it from the history of my life no matter how much I want to. The only thing that I can do now is move forward from here.